Drowing in my sleep

I really hate this feeling. After a few hours sleeping and dreaming about strange things with my family and friends, and then I realise that things will become worse as time goes by... I don´t want to know how will I feel when any of them isn´t by my side... I don´t want to wake up one day and burn my eyes in tears missing somebody... I´d prefer rest forever in an infinte dream instead of suffering the anguish and the pain. That´s the thought of a sunny saturday evening alone at home. That´s something that puts me on my nerves. No one knows how dreadful the future can be, but today... today I don´t really want to know... happy endings only happen in movies...