Sunday...last day before starting again with the ordinary daily life, before returning to a monday that will lead us to another endless week...and another...and another... With no remorse, another day, another breath, another sorrow, another death. I´m not as scared as I used to be...maybe it means something...maybe something is changing in the house of flies. Out of place...well...maybe it´s a good sign, because I´ve felt like this since I can remember.
I´ve always wanted to change things, but never known how-when-where to start. Maybe a greyhound could be my way.
Christmas ended, with a lot of confusion and many contradictory feelings in my heart. Some things have been the same as always: we all together in family, presents, meals, drinks, shopping, the Three Wise Men Parade, the twelve grapes of fortune, christmas carols around a table... But some small details tell you that everything changes, I think it´s just because everything is one year older, and as years pass by, you feel much older than the previous one, and you see how everybody is getting older with you. Some realize, some don´t.
A bid farewell to 2010. This has been the Haifisch year for me, because this is the song I´ve listened the most this year, the discovering of the relationship between Bertolt Brecht and Rammstein after the german band concert in Madrid has illustrated a summer full of sun, tan bodies, sand, wine, fetishism, motorbike, and the horizon of that andalusian seaside village that I still can smell in my dreams. 2010 hasn´t been a good year to make rock, but it has been a good one to listen to it: Norma Jean´s Meridional, Rammstein´s LIFAD, Deftones´ Diamond Eyes, Dillinger Scape Plan´s Option Paralysis, Korn´s Remember Who You Are, Slash´s, and some other I can´t remember...(and I´ve also discovered Alex Skolnick Trio, a great revelation for me!).
I hope I´ll find a nice place to play with the boys: that´s my wish for 2011. I also wish I´ll find my place in this life, but I have to realize I cannot please everybody. I have to be myself...before It´s too late...